I was awake this morning between 2 and 5 am, thanks to cramps and thoughts. At about 3, I gave up lying in bed and came upstairs to get some pain reliever and heat up the "cornbag". Then I laid down on the couch and turned on the TV, happy to find that Cheers is on the Hallmark channel in the wee hours of the morning. Then I set about weaving.
A talent you may not be aware I have is tapestry weaving. Yes, I come from a long line of masters at weaving what my dad calls "A Tapestry of Doom". Take one little thought, one little fear, and from them make an intricate design of misery and worry and woe to hang on the walls of the mind.
So I had plenty of raw material to work with in the middle of the night--starting with Rowdy's illness. His surgeon, Doctor SuperMario, has created a tapestry of doom of his own, certain that R has need of considerable rearrangement of his digestive system. To support his plan, he ordered an abdominal ultrasound, that I was able to arrange for this morning (and was 100% normal, thank you very much). But, I was stewing about that (I also make a great stew, to eat while I weave), and that lead to fretting about how everything was going to get done over the next couple of months--getting Keiler back home and settled and feeling loved and appreciated and motivated, doing my part in the Stake Primary's upcoming inservice and other activities, work, making sure that all of our family members who are going to chip in some way to help us out (my folks, R's folks, SIL Super T) all feel appreciated and loved and that their needs are met, training with and fundraising for the Crohn's and Colitis Foundation's team that will run the Las Vegas Rock 'n' Roll half marathon....
But anyway...the phrase that came to mind somewhere in the midst of this sleepless night was "get a grip and let go". There have been times in the past where I have felt overwhelmed or beaten down or lost much worse than I felt in the middle of last night. Those experiences were navigated with Divine help, and things always turned out much better than I could have imagined. I KNOW that Heavenly Father is watching over us, and we have the strength to get through whatever is coming up. I also know that we only have to approach these things one day at a time, one second at a time, even.
Anybody want to buy a used loom?
9 comments:
I wish I could grab your mantra. I've got quite a tapestry in the works myself but I can not let it go, I feel too strongly about it. I appreciate your words of wisdom, I'm completely confident that everything you have on your plate in the next few months will run quite smoothly.
What a powerful phrase. "Get a grip and let go." Do what you can, then let God do the rest. Thanks for that beautiful post.
I have been using the words "Be Still and know that I am God" a LOT lately. Basically meaning the same thing. and I also love "Be ye not weary in well doing." It helps to remember that we don't have to have total control and that if we just do our best everything will work out well. Thanks for sharing your tapestry!
Yep, the "Tapestry of Doom" has many an experienced weaver in our family. I think I have a black belt in weaving now.
I'm glad that you are open to inspiration, and that you not only hear the message, but you do your best to act upon it.
One of the hardest concepts for me is to understand how to do my part, and not give up all responsiblity, but yet to trust Heavenly Father to do His part. I can't figure out where to let go, and where to put my shoulder to the wheel (or loom).
Please keep letting us know how it goes, and what you learn!
Seriously when there is not really anytrhing you can do right then just really put it in heavenly fathers hands and trust. Easier said than done,I know.
I love the Tapestry of Doom analogy! You have the right attitude, and I'm sure everything will go well. My thoughts are with you, as always.
I can completely understand your worry over R and even K, but certainly no one else on your list needs or expects one single thing. Look at that...your load is lighter already!!! We love you!
I sooo appreciated your words and thoughts. (sigh) You and Rowdy will be in my prayers daily. I have some things to send you. And, by the way...I am often up watching Cheers.
Love to you
Read: patrickandashley.blogspot.com
Her blog for yesterday, Thursday August 12th. "I Can Do Hard Things"
I'm repeating that one. My daddy is sick. I'm going to send you the last few updates, so you can know what he's dealing with. Sandra and I are heading up tomorrow morning for the weekend.
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